Fear

Shifting my focus to start with the things that were most natural and came easy for me is where I need to begin.

In the last few years, I have found myself experiencing a paradigm shift in different areas of my life, the most recent being what I want my daily life to consist of. Inspired by Nyanchomba, a life coach, I thought of what my ideal day would look like and what I need to do to get there.

I want to enjoy the passing of time. I want to enjoy every day, controlling my time, the course of the day, and enjoying the simple pleasures of a cup of tea on the lawn. I saw how people went about their days outside the cities in the small towns and rural areas and I wanted that, alongside the little comforts of the city that I have grown accustomed to.

As the new year rolled around, I listened to a podcast that described being wealthy as no longer having to exchange your time for money. I have been exchanging my time for money since I graduated. I have been employed for 8 years of my life and I have been answerable to an employer on how I spend 40 hours of my week. I want to take back control of the hours in my day and the only way to do this is to create wealth. I want to be more than a one dimensional person in my hustle. I no longer want to limit myself, but rather to diversify my income and my skills.

I set out to diversify in four different areas and though I know what I need to do, I am frightened and anxious to start. Taking the first step towards my goals has been the hardest, yet I cannot understand why I am afraid of it. I thought about it and narrowed it down to the fear of criticism, inadequacy and not achieving “perfect” results.

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In my reflection, I also realized some of the things I set out to do, do not come easy to me. I am, therefore, frightened by them. I realized that though I might want to do them, they are not natural to me and it is the reason I am afraid of putting one foot in front of the other. Shifting my focus to start with the things that were most natural and came easy for me is where I need to begin. By beginning with those that come easy to me, making a few strides and building up the confidence to take on greater challenges, I will be able to grow the confidence I need to tackle all four goals.

In the pursuit of diversifying, I intend to enjoy the process, whether challenging or smooth sailing.I intend to bet on myself and I intend to win every time. I want to be able to look back at this period in time and be glad that I took a chance on myself and succeeded.